Oh The Guilt...

When you start down the path for medical school, there are lots of things that people tell you.

"You should totally do it! Go to medical school!"

"You have got to be out of your *(&$% mind!"

"Seriously?! Are you nuts?!"

"You can do it!"

People tell you all about the stress and the time and the studying and the feeling of drinking from a fire hose going full blast.

But no one mentioned the guilt. The guilt that you aren't studying enough. The guilt that you aren't doing enough work or that you aren't smart enough and didn't really deserve to be there.

And all the other guilt -- that you are neglecting your friends (you are, although they will understand, at least for a while) and your family (you are, and they might understand, or at least they will pretend to) and your coworkers if you are dumb enough to think that you can still work and the things that need to be done around the house (you are, and your neighbors probably are wondering when your yard turned into a jungle and when you might do something about that).

And I was prepared for the stress. And the studying. And the feeling like my brain would explode if I tried to cram one more little factoid into it.

But I was completely and totally unprepared for the overwhelming guilt.

In Which I Beg For Opinions

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I am not particularly known for my decision making skills. I know, I know - somewhat shocking, and yet, somewhat not. I can make big decisions at the drop of a hat. Decisions about patients and work? In a split second. But everyday choices? You'd think I never made a choice in my life!

So, dear friends, here are the things I am currently in desperate need of your assistance with:

1. Embroidery Machines
I've always wanted one. Why? No idea. Probably because I need another hobby like I need a hole in my head, but whatever. So what say you, interwebs? Worth it to get a combo embroidery/sewing machine? Or is machine embroidery terribly difficult and likely to force me to tear my hair out? Please keep in mind, while bald may be beautiful, it won't be a good look for me.


2. Speedlights
Clearly I want one simply because I don't have one. And because I love my camera. And because you never know when I flash might come in handy (and I refuse to use the built in one). So, what does everyone know about speedlights? Or should I stick to just keeping the aperature wide open learn to hold my damn hands more still?

3. Mac vs. PC
The time is coming in which I will need a new computer. Mine still runs just fine, but the memory is just about full. I keep pulling things off (I have an external drive too) but I never seem to free up much space. And I need more battery life -- even fully charged, I can usually only get about 90 minutes of use before I have to plug in or the whole thing shuts down. So, which is better - Mac or PC? I've always had a PC, but now that I've discovered that you can install windows on a Mac and use a bridge program to run PC based things like my versions of lightroom and photoshop, I am open to the idea of a Mac. I think...


Alright -- on your mark, get set, tell me what to do!